Ridiculous

In the middle of the night
A pain
Undescribable and yet i try to define it
Catching my eyes, flowing my throat, reaching my heart
Oh how heavy are they!
They are his. He loves them
He does not miss to bring them in
Those two little torches of my soul
A violent sentiment of disgust takes possession of my sleep
Prevents me to love and my heart gives in
In submission
I look for that love. That passion he had for me
That which enjoined him from seeing anything else than mine
It turned me ridiculous.